questionable

 So my dad had a date last night.  And he’s discovered online dating.  I came over to the house tonight and watched him drink a few double vodkas.  He waxed poetic about life, gave me orders to redecorate the upstairs and then yelled at me about how someone working at the company isn’t doing her fair share.

Then he asked me to get him some soup.  After I reheated soup for him, he got a call from a lady on one of the dating sites, so I am sure I’ll be heating up the soup again.

I miss my mom.  I’m trying to be a good supportive daughter and understand that he doesn’t want to be alone, but it’s only been 2 months.

And although he often says he cares about me, he never listens to me for more than one sentence- especially after a few drinks.

I certainly don’t feel supported.

I’m ready to quit everything.  How am I supposed to work full time, take care of this house, and have a life at all?  I had to ask if I could go out to dinner tomorrow night which s for my 21st anniversary in sobriety and he didn’t even ask why I wanted to go out with my friends.

I feel small, petty, bitter.  Lost and alone and not sure how to set some boundaries to improve my life but still honor the promise I made to my mother.